14th January 2008

14th January 2008 : 2:58 PM

I opened my eyes with utmost effort. I. I. I don’t know. I feel the whole room is swinging to and fro. I can hear the ‘Tick Tick’ sound from the clock some where around. I. I. I couldn’t think. I feel so tired. What the hell is happening around ? I managed to open my eyes and noticed that I am inside a tub. Yes, it’s a bath tub. What am I doing here ? Iam covered by ice cubes. I am still not sure. I am confused. What happened ? I heard the talking clock saying 3 pm. I cant feel anything below my neck Why am I not feeling cold even when I am surrounded by ice. What happened last time when I was conscious ? I try to recollect and I barely remember. I noticed the daily calendar in the corner of the bathroom over the slab near the wash basin. It says 14th January 2008 : Monday. Oh my god. Oh S**t. F****g hell. I don’t know what happened last 1.5 days.

13th January 2008 : 12:32 AM

I was walking after a team dinner and dance hosted by our office in a posh 5 star restaurant. The cold Bangalore climate was a real catalyst for reckless dance. I was overwhelmed and got quiet drunk to aggrevate myself. I managed to still be on control as it is office party and not my close mates. The bartender made the announcement for the close of the bar at 12. I wanted to dance so badly but I have to adhere and walk calmly to my home. I was tired of trying to catch autos near MG road. All where quiet busy and finally managed to see one auto reversing towards me after crossing me over. I couldn’t really think a lot. My brain is full of alcohol mixed with 10% of other liquids. ‘Basavanagudi’, I puked when I was telling this to the driver.

14th January 2008 : 3:22 PM

I couldn’t recollect what happened after that. I can not. What happened? I shooked my head to get revived but I felt more pain when I do that. I managed to get up and I cant. Its just my right fore hand moves barely and manages to swing a bit. I don’t know about my left hand its drowned under the ice back below my neck. Some thingz written on the ball front of me. ‘CALL FOR MEDICAL HELP’. What ? Why ? What happened? The room looked quiet scary. I couldn’t sense what place and what happened? I saw the door half opened and tried my best to scream. I could hardly raise my voice. I know I am feeling weak.

I thought there should be some phone around. I just started looking for phone around with hand touching the floor and maneuvering around to see if I could get hold of a phone. Yes, Yes, Yes. I got it. Its my own phone. Oh yes. I quickly grabbed it and lifted up to get it infront of my eyes. I tried to locate Vasanth’s number who is my room mate. I am sure he must be looking for me. I called. I called. Its ringing. Its ringing. ‘Damnnnnnnnn’, I cant believe it the battery is off. I wanted to cry but I am beyond that stage. I screamed to the best. I felt so weak. I cant sense anything below my neck. What happened? I don’t know what they did on my body when I am not conscious. Is it the auto driver or am I being attacked by any other gang ??? Full of confusions.

I am supposed to go to my home town yesterday. I am scheduled to meet my fiancée. I am getting married next month. Why me ? I cried. I am sure my friends and family would have started looking for me. I am missing man. I am not sure if it would be of any help even if I can call. I don’t know where the hell I am. I am panic. I don’t know what happened last 1 day, I don’t know what the gang did with me, I don’t know where I am, I am not sure what to do, Infact I cant do anything otherthan swinging my right fore arm. Ok calm down. Calm down. Let me think. I should think. Don’t panic. Come on think, think, think. I can see blood and its fully red inside the tub. Had they took my kidney and put me here ? Or is it some other organ ? Or have they robbed me and stabbed me ? Not sure. Anyways I cant even sense.

14th January 2008 : 3:55 PM

I slowly observed the room inch by inch to get any clue of the place. I can hear something. The sound of the train. I guess I am near some railway track. Where is this ? Not enough clue. I am trying to observe. Think Think. May be I can try switch on the phone again but it wont last for more than 10-15 secs due to low battery. Whom should I call ? What to convey ? I need to know this address. I don’t have much help. I just managed to get my first promotion in my work place and all set for an onsite trip to USA in 2 months time after my marriage. I was filled with dreams until 36 hours ago. I got angry. I started loosing my senses. I screamed. I tried to get up. I tried to be aggressive. I realized my hand can move much better now.

I should do something. That’s enough I cant die here. I want to live. I still have dreams to ful fill. I can not dieeeeeee. I noticed there is a bin near the tub in a distance where my hands could reach. There is a small plastic bag on the bin to collect the garbage. I got an idea. I started filling the bin with the ice cubes one by one to get a good weight. I notice the bath room’s window is open. Its right on the left hand side of me on top. I jus took a piece of paper from the bag and written HELP PLZ IM DIEING with my blood. I put 2-3 papers inside the bag on top of the ice. The idea is to throw the bag through the window and by gods grace if some one notices should read the letter and get some help for me.

The plan works well so far as I anticipated. I tried to tie the top end of the bag with one hand and inserted all the paper pieces with messages on all sides. I throwed the bag out of the window as fast as I could with my best shot so that the bag land some where in the road avoiding the sun shades or compounds.

I did all I could do and now its in gods hands to save me. I started to pray good as I am a firm believer of this controversial existence.

14th January 2008 : 4:43 PM

I slowly dozing away. I cant think any more. I switched on my mobile to let Vasanth know some how about my trouble. I switched on immdly and called him. He took the phone in first Ring. ‘Vasanth listen I am locked inside a room near railway track call police and sa~~~~~~~~’ The phonez dead. I cried again. I cant take this. Its so unfair. Why me ??? I am getting more weak.

14th January 2008 : 6:02 PM

I slowly started loosing my senses. I slowly started dozing away when I suddenly hear a noice behind the door but I can’t react any more.

S-O-M-E B-O-D-Y S-A-V-E M-E


P.S:

Moral : Nothing
Message : Nothing
Climax : Nope

Why this attempt ? : I am alone on a business trip and this is what all I thought of writing at early morning 1.45 AM.

Note: Try not to be idle or try not to be awake during nights.

Dhoni : Leadership par excellence

This is all about learning from the new leadership sensation of Indian cricket team, Mahendra Singh Dhoni… Earlier I had few reservations on him as he haven’t encouraged the inclusion of seniors like dravid and specially Ganguly in the team. Now his ideas are proved worthy as he won the ODI trophies in Australia and Srilanka and winning more ODIs… The team’s potential is undoubtedly high right from the beginning and what makes this young lad so special being ‘the leader’ did mattered.
Dynamic decision making skills:

Many leaders go with a strategy and mostly stick to it in the battle field be it a sports or in corporate world… They don’t go out of the box or go with any adhoc strategy to approach the crisis the team facing… this chap stands apart with his quick and effective decisions…. For ex… in the 4th ODI against SL in the idea cup, when Jayasurya was at his best hiking the run rate, he got bajji to attack little early only to disturb his rhythm and getting the catch at 2nd slip by well placed fielding….another ex. Is bringing Joginder sharma during the final of the T20 World cup to bowl the last critical over to win the title… this is ofcourse a big risk.. I appretiate his nature of going-by-instincts which pays good for any professional who is in the field for quiet some time…

Never say die attitude:

This is one of the key quality a leader should possess… this guys approach some times reminds me the Hansie Cronje’s XI of south Africa… no matter how many wickets lost… no matter how many runs the opponents scored… ‘We are still in the game’… although past leaders had this quality, dhoni went on take the best of it when compared with others….

Young blood, bold decisions:

Being young is major advantage…. No matter in whatever field one is in… from wat I observed with my limited experience looking at the world… most of the old managers scare to take bold decisions and also I noticed young managers or old managers who are young in themselves never gives a big thinking on taking bold decisions… ther focus being the team’s victory rather worrying about ‘how worse the impact of my decision making will be’

Good team:

This is a sort of luck factor.. however, I wont completely call it as luck… to me I feel dhoni got a better talented cricketers than what sachin had in his regime….

Taking up the responsibility:

This is something made him the best… he entered in to the team as a disaster man who got impeccable strike rates in every match he plays… I cant forget his 183 that he made so early in his career… This was highest by any wicketkeeper batsman… After becoming captain, he took more responsblty to his shoulder and did justice to his role as a captain.. which is what lagging by most of the leaders in any field… after taking up the captainship, his strike rate significantly went down, the point to be noted is his average… which has immensively raised to show his tempermant and responsblty that he had taken up to show good results rather goin on to improve his personal record… a self less person who worked for his team and country…. Also, made sure he got the best of the money he could make while he is at peak of his carrer through ads, ipl, etc….

I am sure he will get many followers for his leadership, talent and above all his ‘Sportsmanship’ : )