***swamped with life***

eh??? i can see u all unwillingly puzzled with this title arent ya???.... well am not really in a cheer mood for past few days..... (very apparent!!!! cant write the reasons out here) .... but i feel like i really need a break...im a little confused wth how to live my life... i was actually in no mood to blog at all...however, i need to record this feeling by some means and i am no way intersted in storing this in a private diary.. (i don have one any way...)

this morning i have seen one of my friend's (not actually, but i wud love to be his...) blog... ive seen the updates very recently which is absltly not a routine or a normal happening ( **coz he was expired in an accident, like an year back :( ** )... how come his blog gets the recent entry then??? i cant stop tears wen i come to know his mom is continuing in her son's name.... that really affected me a lot....she waz expressing her happiness as her son lived the way he liked for all his life time (tho he had a very short life) ... her lines are just lively and expresses how much affection they both got on each other.... man if i have a magical power or some miracle i can do for only once in my life ....i will jus get him back alive.... :(

i read this arnd this morning and the trauma sits in my cerebellum until now (i dunno for how long....i wish i shdnt think abt this) and this affected me for some reason....this clubs along with the worst (worried rather...) phase that i am facing in my life.... i hvnt given enuf concentration in my presentation either and i pray things shud change very soon to see the daffodils blooming again :-